Today's Observations

1. Every place outside of Michigan that I have visited is obsessed with Chipotle. Both in Texas and Oregon the line stretches through the entire establishment, and even outside at times. This is the second time in my life I've eaten at Chipotle, and it's not bad. But for masses of people to be this obsessed that they will wait in 20 minute lines for this? Am I missing something?

2. The first thing people notice about me are my big, beautiful tits. Or so I was informed. I was told they're just "so big" and "so bouncy." This is hysterical to me because I didn't realize other people found them so appealing and pleasant. As I sit here I keep looking down at them and... I guess they are pretty nice.

I'll be honest I have body-love issues, still. I've made great headway and generally don't feel self-conscious about my body at all anymore. But there are times when I'm thinking, "Great, just the person I want to see me right now while I'm eating and they think I'm fat and disgusting." Or when people actually tell me I'm chubby. I'm not chubby, I'm nearly 5'-fucking-11'', I exist, I have bones (for fuck's sake). But to hear that when people see me (or at least this one person) they don't think what a heifer I am, and instead find it hard to tear their eyes away from my rack. Well, that's a success.

I'm not sure if I'm a master of redirected attention, or if maybe, just maybe, I'm not some chubby girl anymore.